I have avoided being honest about my illness for so long that the lies I tell feel more real than the truth does. The truth is, I am doing well for the first time in years. I have time now to breath and oddly enough, my breathe is not strained. So, I have chosen to begin instead of maintaining status quo. I would like to try talking. I think for the first time I have something to say. I found that connecting with those whom have shared experience to me is the only thing that helped quiet my rampaging mind.